I am walking around in restless circles, moving piles of fabric from one corner of my cutting table to another without even cutting anything. I am looking at ready cut pieces ready to be assembled and find myself hanging them over my creative cupboard doors instead of actually putting them together.
I get sucked into online shopping of fabric instead of actually looking through my own stash for inspiration first. My mind is designing a new pillow every 5 minutes, but only in my head. I am designing fabric, a Christmas line, in my head... But everything just stays there - in my head.
I am thinking I should write a list of all my items, make price labels, make new business cards, a presentation of my work for my table... But I can't even think past no 1 on the list at this point...
I nibble in the cupboard and fold a bit of laundry, hang out with the kids and have a laugh. Get back into my sewing corner thinking "Now I am ready to make something. Just something!" but the second after I am drifting out in the living room and the family commotion.
I find myself with the crochet hook in hand, making yet another granny square with no purpose in mind... The mixing colors magic has a calming effect on me. It helps me breathe... Although I am not sure I am so happy with my square yet...
I think I have enough for the market on Sunday, I really do. It is just my first market, a time to learn, experience and see if I like it. I should be proud of myself, I have worked hard. My favorites are my buntings and my cute notebooks. And the pillows. And the baby blanket. Well, I guess all of it are my favorites. It is supposed to be like that, isn't it? I should be my own biggest fan. :D
This is all about the close to deadline experience. Still I have so much to do and get nothing done. I have always been like this. I just have to wait until the last minute to finish. And when the last minute appears I am like Miss Super Lady. Efficient, quick, focused. I finish. Just in time. And that will happen even this time. Just not right now... Later. Anyone feel the same?
Thank you so much for all your support. You are all truly the absolute best. Where would I have been without you I sometimes wonder. I certainly wouldn't have come this far this quick in my creative journey. I owe you all a big big thank you for always being there, supporting me and letting me know even little me counts in this big world we live in. Love you all! ♥♥♥